Grandpa

Yesterday afternoon, I received a phone call from my sister Kelli. Kelli informed me that Grandpa was not doing very well, and a surgery was required to stop the bleeding. For the surgery, doctors will go in and remove his left lung. However, doctors aren't giving us much hope for my Grandpa to make it through the surgery because of the amount of blood that he has lost. Even though I tossed and turned with the decision to go and visit him, I decided right then and there that Brandon and I needed to go and visit him. My cousin Scott and his wife Vironica were going up as well as my Aunt Bev and Uncle Elvis. These last 4 people are the rock, to me, of my mother's side of the family. They are the one's that I depend on the most because I don't talk to anyone one else on my mom's side of the family.

We left for the hospital at 6 and got there an hour later. While coming to the rotating door of the hospital, we met my mother, sister Megan, and Megan's fiance Tucker. Megan immediately went through the rotating door not even bothering to look at us. My mother and Tucker waited for us on the other side. At face to face for the first time since the wedding, my mother told me that to go on up and and my Grandpa knows everything about his situation.

Brandon and I went up to his room. When seeing my Grandpa for the first time since Thanksgiving 2008, I bawled. I couldn't stop the tears. I immediately went to his side, gave him a kiss on the forehead, and held his hand. I apologized for not coming to see him sooner, and told him that we were going to be here with him through this entire situation. He told me that it was okay, and that it was his fault for his family breaking up. He also told me that he just wanted his family back together.

After a much needed visit, Brandon and I left for home. Needless to say, we will be going back up today for my Grandpa's surgery.

Seeing him in that situation, I just couldn't take it. I've been around people in ICU many many times, but seeing my Grandpa in this situation was completely different. Besides all the IVs and necessary tubes, he has a plasma bag and a blood bag hooked up to him.

If you are reading this, please continue to pray for my Grandpa. Pray for him and our family as we try to come together at this difficult time in our lives. GOD BLESS.